Guilt is one of the most powerful feelings in the world. It is self-consuming and leads you to the darkest dungeons of despair within your mind, that you never knew existed. It takes you to levels of hopelessness and sorrow that you never thought would be possible to experience. It robs you of every ounce of peace and freedom. Sometimes it draws you into a web of unreasonable beliefs about yourself that are so self-reinforcing that you start to treat them as reality. It preys on you when you least expect it, brings unseen tears to your eyes and mocks you when you sleep every night. It spies on you when you laugh...you can feel its cruel sneer when you enjoy...it looks through your soul when you feel the slightest hint of peace..you can almost see its ugly grimace when you reassure yourself. The vice-like grip is so overpowering that at times you want to be able to go to any lengths to escape. It is impossible to shield yourself from it as it entwines itself intimately into your conscience till it is an integral part of your being.
Do you come to reconcile yourself with it or fiercely battle it or do you start to believe its insinuations?How do you learn to live with yourself?How do you separate the constant unease from your soul?What do you do with this twisted entity that forces itself into your system and takes you from the mundane rigors of daily life to a convoluted plot against yourself?
What will it take for you to make me stop crying in the shower each day?
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