I am in an exceptionally dull mood today. The day has been dark, dreary and terribly monotonous. I have procrastinated all day. It is almost seven o clock and in about five hours I am going to be sleepy again. There is an itchiness in my throat and I can feel the beginning of an annoying cold. God knows I hate this! The only high point was when I spoke to my family today, except that it suddenly made me very homesick. Who knew I had the capacity to miss home?

I am feeling so blah...!The head feels like its stuffed with a ton of bricks and is going to explode. I need to be alone..take a walk by myself, get lost in the world...just detach and alienate! It always works..lifts me out of my gloom...or not. or not. or not.

this piece is so staccato. i have no idea how to overcome this feeling!