Once again another new year...another day of reflecting about my lack of purpose, thoroughly disenchanting existence and of bleaker days to come. (Okay, Maya would kill me!)...So to revert to 'positive thinking', let's see. I am studying at one of the top institutions in the world, will surely get a job somewhere, despite the sorry state of the economy, most (i repeat, most) people don't find me half-bad (okay, they like me!) and I have stricken at least some fun "things to do before i die" off my list. That can't be too terrible. 2008 was in fact a million times better than 2007, by that logic, 2009 has got to have better things in store...I am not sure what there is to look forward to but it will be interesting to find out.
It is also a good idea to reflect on the kind of person I have become. Sometimes my lack of caring shocks me. It is antithetical to my idea of myself as a 'good' human being. But 'good' can have a dozen other connotations, can it not?It doesn't have to take on restrictive, conventional meanings. Are there things I am ashamed of?Not really. I have no regrets, but for November 29th, 2006. That I can live with. I have moved past it in the most beautiful way possible. So resilience is obviously something I have.
This New Year, I have a few resolutions I am hoping to keep. They are simple, yet meaningful to me. They appear easy, but are ironically some of the hardest things for me to do. I also plan to push myself to smile more often, think ahead rather than backward and challenge myself to be 'good' in my own eyes. As long as I don't disappoint myself, it is okay...the world had better deal with who I am.
It is also a good idea to reflect on the kind of person I have become. Sometimes my lack of caring shocks me. It is antithetical to my idea of myself as a 'good' human being. But 'good' can have a dozen other connotations, can it not?It doesn't have to take on restrictive, conventional meanings. Are there things I am ashamed of?Not really. I have no regrets, but for November 29th, 2006. That I can live with. I have moved past it in the most beautiful way possible. So resilience is obviously something I have.
This New Year, I have a few resolutions I am hoping to keep. They are simple, yet meaningful to me. They appear easy, but are ironically some of the hardest things for me to do. I also plan to push myself to smile more often, think ahead rather than backward and challenge myself to be 'good' in my own eyes. As long as I don't disappoint myself, it is okay...the world had better deal with who I am.
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