I think I function in a rather strange way. Odd things make me happy. I find comfort in peculiarities. Anyone observing me would think I am indeed weird. But as long as it keeps me content, I honestly do not care. My dysfunctionality often tends to be infectious. People happily label me as a 'nutcase' and laugh at/with me. It is both my weakness and a source of strength. I think it complements my contradictions very well.
Looking back at the past one month, there have been a few decisions that could, in principle, be regarded as fundamentally flawed. Yet in that 'wrong', I find elements of 'right'. Maybe those decisions were mindless, completely unbeneficial to me or even had (or will have) potentially negative consequences. They quite possibly arose out of nothing at all. But as long as I can live without regret and continue to seek solace in my shortcomings, it is okay.
Strange, random and often inexplicable deeds/behaviour continue to dominate my life. As I go about making simple, yet potentially complex choices each day, I wonder if I should stop and retrace my steps. Only to realize that I gladly thrive on such mindlessness. So I suppose its only fair that I stay on track. It makes me happy and keeps me sane. Well...at least, others too can have a good laugh and congratulate themselves on their superiority.
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