February

I wonder if I have made it a habit to write on the last day of each month. If so, I would certainly like to grow out of it and write more frequently. Well, February has been an eventful month. From hours of useless gossip, hanging out, visiting street markets, getting random threats, making impulsive decisions to travel, embarking on a company project, being offered a European Masters programme to getting bad grades on assessed essays...it has been quite a packed month! I really wanted to make each day count and I believe I have, in a strange, convoluted manner. Yes, I will miss these days at Carr-Saunders...they have been quite something! I am not sure what I might have to look forward to once I move on from here. The self-confidence plummets very often and I force myself to stay positive. I reinforce that which is good, yet sometimes the picture is so very grey. I try not to imagine what my life would be like a year from now.

In that respect, February with its amazing pace has not allowed me even a moment to stop and introspect. I need more months like these, they help me function better..there is an ease and a comfort level that is unparalleled.